© 2003 Shine Records
Lyrics
Focus on the pleasure getting high
Fathering my endless fucking pain
Close enough to feel this fire burn
Drowning in my flesh & blood
I question your existence or is it mine
I question your existence or is it mine
Focus on the pleasure of being low
Knowing no other way to go
If you may find it in your will
I found this feeling is for real
*I guess we’re born to die, So focus on living
I guess we’re born to die, So focus on living
I question your existence or is it mine
I question your existence or is it mine
I question everything
(Music & Lyrics by Cherish Alexander)
Here I go again
Holding on to nothing
With all the hell I’ve seen
I can’t find what I’m searching for
Time can do no harm
Only restless becomings
What I used to be & what I choose to be
Altered mind, Sheltered heart, blinded eyes
I’m gonna throw this all away
*Goodbye to who I ever was before
Hello To June
*Goodbye to who I ever was before
Hello To June
Here we are again
Holding on for something
Wish for so much more
To find out what were searching for
So we find the time
Afraid of we’ll find
So go away with wings
Only from yourself
I said, Hello, Hello, Hello, Hello
Hello, Hello, Hello, Hello, Hello To June
I said, Hello, Hello, Hello, Hello
Hello, Hello, Hello, Hello, Hello To June
(Music & Lyrics by Cherish Alexander, William Baker)
Sitting here inside your room
Wondering what they did to you
Wondering if it’s ok if I stay awhile.
Well c’mon hold your head up high
Lift your heights past to the sky
Don’t let their insecurity get you down
*When you think you’ve gone too far
There’s so much in your way
When you’re on the line
I know that you will Shine
I’m writing here inside my room
I never know just what to do
So I pour myself a gin & tonic and drink awhile
Anyways on your on my mind
I’ll never say just give it time
This moment is all we have to live in style
*When you think you’ve gone too far
There’s so much in your way
When you’re on the line
I know that you will Shine
Leave it to the sky
Never wait for time
When your on the line
I know that you will Shine
(Music & Lyrics by Cherish Alexander)
Zero follow
Teachings hollow
Feared by wisdom
Here’s my healing
*I’m Sorry, I’m Sorry, I’m Sorry
The spiritual in which you lead is filled with unforgiven greed
*I’m Sorry, I’m Sorry, I’m Sorry
The spiritual life in front of me is filled with reason to believe
Faithless borrow
Hidden sorrow
No one listens
As we’re screaming
Zero follow
Teachings hollow
Feared by wisdom
Phony our kingdom
(Music & Lyrics by Cherish Alexander)
Dead inside but still alive
My soul it bleeds internally
Thirsting for a sip of your smile
A year ago like yesterday
Lord, You know how hard I prayed
Make you stay here for awhile.
*Life was better with you here
I know it will take some time to fully heal
Before I say Goodbye
Unwanted change is moving on
Holding on to everything
Just to be your thoughts for awhile
A year ago like yesterday
Lord you know I’d give up anything
Just to have you here for awhile
Even when I lied you were mine
Even when you died you were mine
*Life was better with you here
I know it will take some time to fully heal
Before I say, Before you say
Before we say Goodbye
(Music & Lyrics by Cherish Alexander)
I am not myself today
Tomorrow I swear I’ll be different
Locked doors when I am this way
Tomorrow I swear I’ll be happy
Too much Caffeine, Coffee stains
Today it makes me drowsy
All this suffering
Just makes me want you more
*You’re just bringing me down, down, You’re just bringing me down
You’re just bringing me down, down, You’re just bringing me way down
So many times you’d say
You don’t know who I am
Then through Science love
You don’t know who you are
Don’t believe in guns anymore
I won’t approve your violence
Don’t believe in love anymore
This fine line could be hate
You’re bringing me down, You’re bringing me down
You’re bringing me down, You’re just bringing me down
(Music & Lyrics by Cherish Alexander)
These words will be the last I write
The love will the last I fight
In hope that one day all this pain inside my heart will fade away
*Jesus Loves Me
Why can’t it be enough for me, enough for you
And great is something I will never be
Who is this stranger in this family
I pray that one day all this darkness that I feel will fade to grey
(Music & Lyrics by Cherish Alexander)
(Music by Cherish Alexander, Greg Zinn)